My Dark Passenger

I can sense that you are here

Yet I can’t see you.

I can feel your presence here

But still I can’t touch you.

I know you pretend to be happy

Unfortunately, you are not.

Every night, before you sleep,

I know you think about me, like always…

I just know…

Oh dear,

It’s just for retelling you

What you already know.

After all, its 2012 now.

And as they say,

End of the world is imminent

So,

Why don’t you show yourself?

And prove that I am right.

Why don’t you come near to me?

And prove that you are close enough.

Right here right now!

That’s my dark passenger calling you...

Hear me out...

The sooner, the better!

‘Coz…

tic-tic-tic

That’s the sound of our life running.

If ONLY

If only, I could go back in time

And change a few things here

And a few things there

Then, I would call my life perfect.

I would have erased few miseries

Some that I caused…

And the others which I endured.

Then, I would not be as disturbed as I am.

After all… a little less misery,

                    A little more joy!!

I would have deleted a few memories

Some bad ones in my mind

And the others painful ones in others

Then, I could live my life pleasantly

After all... the minimum the pain,

                  The sweeter the pill!!

I would have removed few people from my life

Some who made life a living hell

And others loving and very dear ones

Then, I could still dream of someone to be with

After all... if I would have not met you,

                  I would have not lost you!!

If only, I could go back in time…

ना जाने क्यों?

देखा था तुझे मैंने

अपने ही आसपास..यहीं तो था तू 

तूने हाथ भी बढ़ाया था मेरे लिए

पर तेरे पास जाते-जाते सब धुंधला क्यों हुआ

क्यों तू फिर जाने लगा मुझसे दूर

ना जाने क्यों?

सब से दूर जाने के बाद भी

तू रोज़ आता था मुझसे मिलने

वैसे ही प्यार-दुलार करता था तू मुझसे

तेरा स्पर्श..तेरा स्नेह..तेरा अनुभव

यकीं हो चला था मुझे कि सब सच है

ना जाने क्यों?

अक्सर साथ चला करते थे हम

हाथ में हाथ थामे संग एक दूसरे के

लम्बी से लम्बी दूरियाँ तय करते थे

पर अचानक ये रास्ते ग़ायब क्यों होने लगे

तेरा मेरा साथ छूटने क्यों लगा

ना जाने क्यों?

पल भर का साथ था तेरा बस

फिर भी ज़िन्दगी उसी के चारों तरफ घूमने लगी थी

घडी-दो-घडी हँस के बिता के तेरे साथ

जीवन कि खुशियाँ बटोरने लगी थी मैं

फिर अचानक हुआ सच्चाई से सामना…

ना जाने क्यों?

फिर ख़याल आया मुझे…

फिर आँखें खुली मेरी

फिर एहसास हुआ मुझे..

आखिर ये एक ख्वाब ही तो देख रही थी मैं !

पर सवाल अभी भी यही है..

ना जाने क्यों?

Lost and Found : My Strange New Life

I began having few motives in my mind,

To give an end to things with no life,

And to finish few incomplete drives.

Now I know it doesn’t matter what you decide,

Coz it’s not you who has that right!

On my way, I met lots of strangers.

Few were focused in their own adventures,

Others were just completing their chore,

Left ones were probably running away from lies,

But it had to be the fate which had the final stripe!

Tragedy occurred, we closed our eyes.

Moments later, Opened our eyes, found ourselves under the sky,

With no floor to sit on and no roof to survive beneath.

We strangers were all left for each other,

Whether for support, or a shoulder to cry!

Hard task it was, in front of us.

People were finding impossible to survive.

But strangely, it was a place with peculiar gift.

Not only had it brought our courage back,

But also helped some of us to bring back our life!

Nothing was left but only hope.

With each passing day it became tough to tougher.

Hope vanished, bravery went missing,

Dreams were long gone, heroism disappeared.

What was only left was searching for the reason to stay alive!

Strange things happened, fear overcame all of us.

Whether coz of some dangerous turn or a weird innate,

We all became a family, we all became friends,

Love still survived, emotions still persisted.

We, once strangers, stood together in the moments of fright!

That place was in a way very special indeed.

Each one of us found our hidden abilities.

Few got rid of their worst weaknesses.

Some found their best strength.

And others developed unbeatable insight!

We started living together then,

We started finding happiness,

And it was a matter of time,

We were all happy and content,

We all found a new happy life!

Far from the chaos and difficulties,

That made every single day hard to survive.

Away from those, I have started a new life,

Joyful, Cheerful, Blissful is the way I define.

Yes, finally I have started a new life!

इंतज़ार

यूँ अचानक से दो वर्ष बाद,

दिल फिर वैसे ही धड़का है !

ना जाने ऐसा क्या हुआ है...

क्यों ये जिस्म ऐसे तड़पा है ?

आँखों में फिर वैसे ही अश्क है

पर कह सकूँ जिसे ऐसा नहीं कोई शख्स है

फिर अपने आप को तन्हा पाया है

क्या हालात ने फिर मझे आज़माया है ?

क्यों ये दर्द उठता है बार बार ?

क्यों याद आ जाता है मुझे उनका दुलार ?

कोई मरहम भी तो नहीं जो मिले थोडा सुकून 

ना जाने ऊपर वाले का है ये कौन-सा कानून !

क्यों अकेला रहने से डरता है ये दिल ?

क्यों कोई हमराही ढूँढता है ये दिल ?

जब आप है मेरे दिल के सबसे पास.. 

फिर क्यों अधूरी लगती है दिल की हर सांस ?

ये दिल का धड़कना, ये जिस्म का तड़पना

कभी तो ख़त्म होगा..

ये आँखों के अश्क, ये मेरी तन्हाई 

कभी तो गुम होगी..

ये दर्द का मरहम, उस कानून से सुकून 

कभी तो किस्मत में होगा..

ये दिल का अकेलापन, ये साँसों का अधूरापन
कभी तो दूर होगा..

बस उसी वक़्त के इंतज़ार में 

पल-पल काटती – मैं आपकी अंकिता !